Right now my life is a flustered flurry of activity. The messes I’m making at my place are beyond bad. I moved out of my office at church last week, so those boxes of stuff just added to the piles here. Every time I start working on something (books, porcelain shoe collection, ‘big girl’ shoes, etc.) I realize just how much stuff I have. It’s ridiculous!
Today I went and put a stop on my mail and had digital fingerprints taken (for an FBI check for my application for Dominican residency). I’d make a terrible criminal because I kept fighting the poor gal who was trying to have me relax my fingers so she could roll them on the scanner one-by-one. I’m also still waiting for my Birth Abroad birth certificates to arrive. Hurry, Hurry!, HURRY!! my mind keeps shouting.
In the midst of all of this, I am trying to spend time with those I love. I’m having dinner with someone different each night, as well as some coffees, lunches and dinners. It’s been a blessing to hang out and connect with people who have meant so much these past several years. That is honestly more important than all of the stuff I need to get done.
Of course, I still need to have clothes packed for my trip to Colorado next week, so the reality is, that does matter. The whole thing is overwhelming – which is probably why instead of tackling any of it, I’m sitting here blogging! Avoidance – don’t knock it! :O)
Yesterday afternoon I took a break from going through stuff and got on my couch for a nap. I woke up refreshed and with a sense of peace. Despite the fact that nothing had changed – the waves of clutter were still lapping at my feet! – I felt upbeat.
Taking time to breathe and just stop striving gave me time to allow God’s goodness to settle on me. I was reminded that He has given me so many gifts during these past couple of frantic weeks. Friends I’ve not connected with in months suddenly had free time to see me this week. I’ve received lovely cards and notes of encouragement. My support-raising has been incredible. If everyone is able to give what they’ve indicated they would like to give, I will be at 100% of both my Monthly Commitments and my Up-front Expenses!
I say it all the time, but truly, God is so good!! What a privilege to give back to Him some small token of what He has done throughout my life. Jesus left all of Heaven to live and die for us. I’m just moving from one part of the earth to another. He was betrayed by those He loved. I’ve got a stadium-sized cheering squad! Jesus was separated from God. I never have to be.
And so, although I’m still overwhelmed and excited and happy and sad and anxious and mildly freaked out, at my core, I am at peace. The peace of God truly does surpass all understanding. Thank you, Father, for giving me Your peace. May I continue to cling to You, and You alone!